Saturday, May 29, 2010

i'm

okeh

alright

i'm ok now
much2 better than before
up again to reach the sky


ari khamis yg lepas, ptg g rehearsal silat utk persembahan masa majlis konvokesyen n maljlis persaraan dr.kamaruzzaman
rehearsal kat foyer DIK
sume yg terlibat pergi
k.zara je lewat cket cuz abes exam lewat

berlatih la 2,3 kali
agak malu n nervous cuz ade ramai gak yg tgk
tp buat2 cool je

then...
tetiba en.sudin pun ckp
eh mane suara kamu ni
keluarkan suara tu
buat org yg menengok gentar ckit
w/pun gerak tari lembut, suara biar power
lepas kena tu baru la ade kluar suara
power!
yg lelaki la
yg p'puan kluar perlahan ckit
pastu kena torture lg ngn en.sudin nk suh kuatkan suara nanti hari konvo tu nanti

lepas abes rehearsal g jalan2 pusing keliling maktab
aku jln ngn shoba
k.jiha ngn syahid
k.eidaa jln smbil cpk fon

best sgt rase dpt jln2 mcm tu
dh lame x
jogging pun dh lame x
byk dh lemak tepu
tp berat kurang gak
mcm mane ntah

pastu shoba duk menanye aku name pokok yg die x tahu
aku pun ckp la
mcm pemandu pelancong plak
~~~~peace!~~~~
g area stor p.cik cleaner
ampak pokok nangka
dgn sebijik buah nangka yg sgt besar sdg bergayut di situ
*lantaklah bergayut pun*
bestnye kalau dpt makan
shoba pun ckp cmtu
tp buah tu mcm lmbt ag nk masak
entahla bile
tetiba shoba ckp, jom muni next monday dtg ckp kat p.cik nk buah nanga ni
wah
shoba ni mmg desperate
okey shoba
nanti kite pergi ye
uhhhhh
x sabarnye..........

pastu jln2 lg
terserempak ngn izwan n tembikai ronda2 ngn motor
*tembikai=hisyam, nama manja yg aku bg.....
terserempak at area cafe dh
pastu shoba ajak pergi pluck buah jambu kat pagar hostel p'puan
g mintak plastik kat cafe abg din 1
aku ngn shoba pergi la pluck buah jambu tu
semua dh merah
tp buah die agak kecik ag
aku bajet nk ckit je
tp shoba ambik utk die, gk, n shikin skali
dh sampai kat BC square, kite divide
aku amik ckit je
punye la lame dh buah tu
tp malas nk g basuh
bru pg ni basuh n makan
alamak,
byk yg buruk
ade ulat lg
so aku mkn yg mane yg blh mkan je lah

roommateku pergi jom heboh ngn kawan die
tp aku duk kat blik jep
malas nk g memane
nk kuar ngn they all xde mood
aku kirim suh die beli biskut jer...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

down,down,down

i dunno why
i feel so down right now
everything doesn't seem to be right
everything goes wrong
my feeling inside is such a chaos

oh Allah
please help me to ease my feeling
why i'm feeling like this
i'm feeling like hating everything
i don't have the reason for this


i have the feeling to be alone so much
i wanna be at home
i wanna went to ipoh once again
i wanna ease my feeling there
going somewhere
with my sis
i can't focus to one single thing
my assignment is still left unfinished
tomorrow is the deadline

i know that i am nobody to all of you guys
so
nobody don't even care to hear what i am talking about
nobody don't even care about what i am feeling right now
so
this is what is call a friendship?
what the fish...


i feel sucks with everything
except my laptop and the songs

ohh
please

is there anybody that can cheer me up?


aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

enough!!!

let me go!

down,down,down

Sunday, May 23, 2010

left brain vs right brain

LEFT BRAIN : RIGHT BRAIN

uses logic : uses feeling
detailed oriented : 'big picture' oriented
facts rule : imaginations rule
words and language : symbols and images
present and past : present and future
math and science : philosophy and religion
can comprehensive : can 'get it' (i.e. meaning)
knowing : believes
acknowledges : appreciates
order/pattern perception : spatial perception
knows object names : knows object function
reality based : fantasy based
forms strategies : presents possibilities
practical : impetuous
safe : risk taking
positive emotions : negative emotions
more grey-matter (cell bodies) : more white-matter (longer axons)
skilled movement : copying of designs
: understands geometric properties
: reading faces
: music
: global holistic processing
: understanding of metaphors
: expressing and reading emotions





SHARED:
  • sensation of both side of the face
  • sound perceived by both ears
  • pain
  • hunger
  • position


*right brain---->by left hand

*left brain---->by right hand

memories 2

i still remember the day
i was very sad
i was feeling very blue
who i have beside me?
no one!

i need somebody
i'm writing out my blue
on a piece of paper
trashing out all my words

i still remember the day
when i'm feeling very sad
i'm feeling like crying
i'm feeling like wanna screaming out loud
to release all my feeling inside

i'm hoping for someone to be
beside me
who can ease me
who can console me
who can make me erase all the sad feeling

i'm waiting for the person to come to my life
i'm keeps waiting and waiting

but
thanks to Allah
cuz Allah always be by my side
He the one who can make me at ease again
Syukur Ya Allah




*blue=sad

memories 1

i still remember the sun on my faces,
i ate coconut fleshes
i wore a hat with holes
and sometimes i saw bugs
slither silently into the grounds

Thursday, May 20, 2010

who i am

lyrics of the song WHO I AM by Nick Jonas and the Administration

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Nothing makes sense

Nothing makes sense anymore

Nothing is right

Nothing is right when you’re gone

Losing my breath

Losing my right to be wrong

I’m frightened to death

I’m frightened that I won’t be strong

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I’m shakin it off

I’m shain it off

All of the pain

You’re breakin my heart

You’re breakin my heart once again

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Are you gonna love me?

Yeah

For who I am

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Yeah

Who I am

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

world

world

please...

i
wanna
inform
that
i'm
actually
a
sensitive
person

although
i
sometimes
care
less
about
other
people
feeling
but
all
the
times,
i care

do
they
do
the
same?

only
some
of
them...
the
other
some
of
them
not.

i
wanna
do
the
same
sometimes.
can
or
not?


cannot!!!

it's
not
a
good
behaviour
or
act.
i
should
be
good
to
everybody
and
treat
everybody
good

but
sometimes
i
can't
do
it
please
forgive
me...




right
now,
.
.
.
.
.
.
i
feel
very
'sakit hati'
very
'terasa hati'
i
don't
wanna
say
this
out
loud
actually
but
i
need
to
take
it
out
from
my
heart
so
that
it
will
not
burst
once
again...


tit...
tit...
tit...
.
.
.
.
.
.
(>.<)
(T_T)
.
.
.
.
.
.
=(


world

world

please...

i
wanna
inform
that
i'm
actually
a
sensitive
person

although
i
sometimes
care
less
about
other
people
feeling
but
all
the
times,
i care

do
they
do
the
same?

only
some
of
them...
the
other
some
of
them
not.

i
wanna
do
the
same
sometimes.
can
or
not?


cannot!!!

it's
not
a
good
behaviour
or
act.
i
should
be
good
to
everybody
and
treat
everybody
good

but
sometimes
i
can't
do
it
please
forgive
me...




right
now,
.
.
.
.
.
.
i
feel
very
'sakit hati'
very
'terasa hati'
i
don't
wanna
say
this
out
loud
actually
but
i
need
to
take
it
out
from
my
heart
so
that
it
will
not
burst
once
again...


tit...
tit...
tit...
.
.
.
.
.
.
(>.<)
(T_T)
.
.
.
.
.
.
=(


Monday, May 17, 2010

ade jugak

ade jugak eh kat atas muka bumi ni...
orang yg xnak agama.....
ish3x...
nauzubillahi-min-zalik
janganlah terjadi dalam family aku

ni pengalaman aku petang tadi mase naik teksi
time tu time senja
baru lepas maghrib

aku naik teksi 3 orang semuanya
kalau sorang mati aku x naik
driver tu maybe rase sunyi lah kan
so die pun on la radio lam keta tu
mula2 tu ade lagu malay & dj tu duk cakap2
then
tetiba keluar la lagu naysid plak
lagu nasyid je pun
lagu raihan
driver tu terus offkan radio tu
ish...
sadis sungguh
dengar lagu nasyid pun dh macam tu
bayangkan kalau azan or tazkirah or ceramah...

yg tambah sadisnya...
lepas off radio tu
die load satu cd
au pun tunggu la die load cd ape kn...
rupe2nye cd dangdut
adoi...
mak oii...
subhanallah...
time maghrib macam tu boleh die...
aku istighfar je dalam hati
xkan nak tegur plak
kang tiba2 die turunkan kat tepi jalan ke...
mati aku


lepas sampai maktab
kat pondok guard
terserempak dgn fiqa
die pun baru sampai
die mari dgn kakak die
aku pun cakap nak tumpang skali
tumpang dr pondok guard ke hostel
agak penat nk jalan kaki
naik keta kakak fiqa tu sejuk ckit hati aku dpt dgr bacaan al-quran


aku bukan nak mengata
nak menegur apatah lagi
cuma untuk dijadikan iktibar
aku pun x betul jugak
aku ni pun duk asyik dengar lagu mat saleh jer
aku jarang dengar lagu melayu
kecuali nasyid
walaupun aku asyik dengan lagu mat saleh tu, aku dengar gak nasyid n baca al-quran
solat of course lar



tp aku sedih lar dgn dunia zaman sekarang
semua orang memandang remeh tentang agama
hanya pentingkan urusan dunia
ckit2 dunia
sampai meninggalkan urusan akhirat

sekarang ni xpelah sebab Allah x bayar cash
kalau zaman Nabi dulu, Allah bayar cash
tu manusia senang nak insaf
sekarang ni manusia leka sebab xde pengajaran kat depan mata

sekarang ni kat kampung pun manusia dah x kesah nk pergi surau, masjid
x macam dulu2
orang2 tua pun ade jugak yg x kesahkan agama
sepatutnya dalam penghujung usia macam ni lah nk sedar
macam sesetengah artis tu yg masih x insaf2 walaupun usia dh di hujung tanduk

teringat plak cerita 'sebelum akhirat' yg aku tengok kat tv3 ari sabtu malam
watak utama cerita tu banyak melakukan maksiat
jd pengedar dadah, ceti haram, bapak ayam, derhaka pada parents die, tukar2 perempuan macam pinggan pakai buang, bile awek die mengandung suh pergi gugurkan...
memang hidup penuh dgn dosa
last2 dapat AIDS
parents die memang xnak jaga
ade ustaz yg baik hati tolong jagakan die
duk menanggung azab hidup macam mayat hidup
last sekali, mati tanpa dpt mengucap
belum mati dh rasa azab, selepas mati apatah lagi azab yg menunggu

aku bersyukur yg amat mak ayah aku bg ilmu agama at aku
ilmu dunia pun diorang bagi
thanks a lot mom n dad
i love ya so much...
tapi
au xtau macam mane aku nk didik bakal anak2 aku nanti
*tu pun kalau aku akan ada anak...*
dengan kepincangan di sana sini
ishhh...
macam mana ntah
tengoklah nanti
huhuhuhu
bajet macam dh baal jadi ibu jer...
eh, bukan ibu,..umi
bakal bapak die,..abi
tp xtau lagi sape bakal bapaknye
tetiba aku rase nk kahwin skang jgak....
hahahahaha
lol...
x tahan ni...
giler dh aku nih...
mom n dad
tolong...
orang nk kahwin.............................
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
sumpah lau aku cakap macam tu skang ni kena marah
bljr x abes lagi,...keje pun x lagi
dh menggatal
abang aku yg dh ade makwe tu pun x kawin2 lagi
raya ni kot
dpt la kakak ipar baru
aku suke sangat main dgn aliff
anak sedara aku sorang tu
anak k.han aku
rindu betul die kat aku
aku pergi bercuti kat sana
x berhenti memanggil aku
time aku duk dalam bilik duk menghadap lappy, nak duk sebelah aku
time aku pergi mandi duk cari aku
waaaaaaaaaaaaaa
rindunye at die
baru sehari berpisah
tu dgn anak orang lain
lau anak sendiri macam mana eh?
hehehehehehe
ishhh...
dah2 la tu


k lah