i'm

okeh

alright

i'm ok now

much2 better than before

up again to reach the sky

ari khamis yg lepas, ptg g rehearsal silat utk persembahan masa majlis konvokesyen n maljlis persaraan dr.kamaruzzaman

rehearsal kat foyer DIK

sume yg terlibat pergi

k.zara je lewat cket cuz abes exam lewat

berlatih la 2,3 kali

agak malu n nervous cuz ade ramai gak yg tgk

tp buat2 cool je

then...

tetiba en.sudin pun ckp

eh mane suara kamu ni

keluarkan suara tu

buat org yg menengok gentar ckit

w/pun gerak tari lembut, suara biar power

lepas kena tu baru la ade kluar suara

power!

yg lelaki la

yg p'puan kluar perlahan ckit

pastu kena torture lg ngn en.sudin nk suh kuatkan suara nanti hari konvo tu nanti

lepas abes rehearsal g jalan2 pusing keliling maktab

aku jln ngn shoba

k.jiha ngn syahid

k.eidaa jln smbil cpk fon

best sgt rase dpt jln2 mcm tu

dh lame x

jogging pun dh lame x

byk dh lemak tepu

tp berat kurang gak

mcm mane ntah

pastu shoba duk menanye aku name pokok yg die x tahu

aku pun ckp la

mcm pemandu pelancong plak

~~~~peace!~~~~

g area stor p.cik cleaner

ampak pokok nangka

dgn sebijik buah nangka yg sgt besar sdg bergayut di situ

*lantaklah bergayut pun*

bestnye kalau dpt makan

shoba pun ckp cmtu

tp buah tu mcm lmbt ag nk masak

entahla bile

tetiba shoba ckp, jom muni next monday dtg ckp kat p.cik nk buah nanga ni

wah

shoba ni mmg desperate

okey shoba

nanti kite pergi ye

uhhhhh

x sabarnye..........

pastu jln2 lg

terserempak ngn izwan n tembikai ronda2 ngn motor

*tembikai=hisyam, nama manja yg aku bg.....

terserempak at area cafe dh

pastu shoba ajak pergi pluck buah jambu kat pagar hostel p'puan

g mintak plastik kat cafe abg din 1

aku ngn shoba pergi la pluck buah jambu tu

semua dh merah

tp buah die agak kecik ag

aku bajet nk ckit je

tp shoba ambik utk die, gk, n shikin skali

dh sampai kat BC square, kite divide

aku amik ckit je

punye la lame dh buah tu

tp malas nk g basuh

bru pg ni basuh n makan

alamak,

byk yg buruk

ade ulat lg

so aku mkn yg mane yg blh mkan je lah

roommateku pergi jom heboh ngn kawan die

tp aku duk kat blik jep

malas nk g memane

nk kuar ngn they all xde mood

aku kirim suh die beli biskut jer...

down,down,down

i dunno why

i feel so down right now

everything doesn't seem to be right

everything goes wrong

my feeling inside is such a chaos

oh Allah

please help me to ease my feeling

why i'm feeling like this

i'm feeling like hating everything

i don't have the reason for this

i have the feeling to be alone so much

i wanna be at home

i wanna went to ipoh once again

i wanna ease my feeling there

going somewhere

with my sis

i can't focus to one single thing

my assignment is still left unfinished

tomorrow is the deadline

i know that i am nobody to all of you guys

so

nobody don't even care to hear what i am talking about

nobody don't even care about what i am feeling right now

so

this is what is call a friendship?

what the fish...

i feel sucks with everything

except my laptop and the songs

ohh

please

is there anybody that can cheer me up?

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

enough!!!

let me go!

down,down,down

left brain vs right brain

LEFT BRAIN : RIGHT BRAIN

uses logic : uses feeling

detailed oriented : 'big picture' oriented

facts rule : imaginations rule

words and language : symbols and images

present and past : present and future

math and science : philosophy and religion

can comprehensive : can 'get it' (i.e. meaning)

knowing : believes

acknowledges : appreciates

order/pattern perception : spatial perception

knows object names : knows object function

reality based : fantasy based

forms strategies : presents possibilities

practical : impetuous

safe : risk taking

positive emotions : negative emotions

more grey-matter (cell bodies) : more white-matter (longer axons)

skilled movement : copying of designs

: understands geometric properties

: reading faces

: music

: global holistic processing

: understanding of metaphors

: expressing and reading emotions

SHARED:

• sensation of both side of the face
• sound perceived by both ears
• pain
• hunger
• position

*right brain---->by left hand

*left brain---->by right hand

memories 2

i still remember the day
i was very sad
i was feeling very blue
who i have beside me?
no one!

i need somebody
i'm writing out my blue
on a piece of paper
trashing out all my words

i still remember the day
when i'm feeling very sad
i'm feeling like crying
i'm feeling like wanna screaming out loud
to release all my feeling inside

i'm hoping for someone to be
beside me
who can ease me
who can console me
who can make me erase all the sad feeling

i'm waiting for the person to come to my life
i'm keeps waiting and waiting

but
thanks to Allah
cuz Allah always be by my side
He the one who can make me at ease again
Syukur Ya Allah




*blue=sad

memories 1

i still remember the sun on my faces,
i ate coconut fleshes
i wore a hat with holes
and sometimes i saw bugs
slither silently into the grounds

who i am

lyrics of the song WHO I AM by Nick Jonas and the Administration

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Nothing makes sense

Nothing makes sense anymore

Nothing is right

Nothing is right when you’re gone

Losing my breath

Losing my right to be wrong

I’m frightened to death

I’m frightened that I won’t be strong

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I’m shakin it off

I’m shain it off

All of the pain

You’re breakin my heart

You’re breakin my heart once again

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Are you gonna love me?

Yeah

For who I am

I want someone to love me

For who I am

I want someone to need

Is that so bad

I wanna break outta madness

But it’s all I have

I want someone to love me

For who I am

Yeah

Who I am

world

world

please...

i

wanna

inform

that

i'm

actually

a

sensitive

person

although

i

sometimes

care

less

about

other

people

feeling

but

all

the

times,

i care

do

they

do

the

same?

only

some

of

them...

the

other

some

of

them

not.

i

wanna

do

the

same

sometimes.

can

or

not?

cannot!!!

it's

not

a

good

behaviour

or

act.

i

should

be

good

to

everybody

and

treat

everybody

good

but

sometimes

i

can't

do

it

please

forgive

me...

right

now,

.

.

.

.

.

.

i

feel

very

'sakit hati'

very

'terasa hati'

i

don't

wanna

say

this

out

loud

actually

but

i

need

to

take

it

out

from

my

heart

so

that

it

will

not

burst

once

again...

tit...

tit...

tit...

.

.

.

.

.

.

(>.<)

(T_T)

.

.

.

.

.

.

=(

world

world

please...

i

wanna

inform

that

i'm

actually

a

sensitive

person

although

i

sometimes

care

less

about

other

people

feeling

but

all

the

times,

i care

do

they

do

the

same?

only

some

of

them...

the

other

some

of

them

not.

i

wanna

do

the

same

sometimes.

can

or

not?

cannot!!!

it's

not

a

good

behaviour

or

act.

i

should

be

good

to

everybody

and

treat

everybody

good

but

sometimes

i

can't

do

it

please

forgive

me...

right

now,

.

.

.

.

.

.

i

feel

very

'sakit hati'

very

'terasa hati'

i

don't

wanna

say

this

out

loud

actually

but

i

need

to

take

it

out

from

my

heart

so

that

it

will

not

burst

once

again...

tit...

tit...

tit...

.

.

.

.

.

.

(>.<)

(T_T)

.

.

.

.

.

.

=(

ade jugak

ade jugak eh kat atas muka bumi ni...

orang yg xnak agama.....

ish3x...

nauzubillahi-min-zalik

janganlah terjadi dalam family aku

ni pengalaman aku petang tadi mase naik teksi

time tu time senja

baru lepas maghrib

aku naik teksi 3 orang semuanya

kalau sorang mati aku x naik

driver tu maybe rase sunyi lah kan

so die pun on la radio lam keta tu

mula2 tu ade lagu malay & dj tu duk cakap2

then

tetiba keluar la lagu naysid plak

lagu nasyid je pun

lagu raihan

driver tu terus offkan radio tu

ish...

sadis sungguh

dengar lagu nasyid pun dh macam tu

bayangkan kalau azan or tazkirah or ceramah...

yg tambah sadisnya...

lepas off radio tu

die load satu cd

au pun tunggu la die load cd ape kn...

rupe2nye cd dangdut

adoi...

mak oii...

subhanallah...

time maghrib macam tu boleh die...

aku istighfar je dalam hati

xkan nak tegur plak

kang tiba2 die turunkan kat tepi jalan ke...

mati aku

lepas sampai maktab

kat pondok guard

terserempak dgn fiqa

die pun baru sampai

die mari dgn kakak die

aku pun cakap nak tumpang skali

tumpang dr pondok guard ke hostel

agak penat nk jalan kaki

naik keta kakak fiqa tu sejuk ckit hati aku dpt dgr bacaan al-quran

aku bukan nak mengata

nak menegur apatah lagi

cuma untuk dijadikan iktibar

aku pun x betul jugak

aku ni pun duk asyik dengar lagu mat saleh jer

aku jarang dengar lagu melayu

kecuali nasyid

walaupun aku asyik dengan lagu mat saleh tu, aku dengar gak nasyid n baca al-quran

solat of course lar

tp aku sedih lar dgn dunia zaman sekarang

semua orang memandang remeh tentang agama

hanya pentingkan urusan dunia

ckit2 dunia

sampai meninggalkan urusan akhirat

sekarang ni xpelah sebab Allah x bayar cash

kalau zaman Nabi dulu, Allah bayar cash

tu manusia senang nak insaf

sekarang ni manusia leka sebab xde pengajaran kat depan mata

sekarang ni kat kampung pun manusia dah x kesah nk pergi surau, masjid

x macam dulu2

orang2 tua pun ade jugak yg x kesahkan agama

sepatutnya dalam penghujung usia macam ni lah nk sedar

macam sesetengah artis tu yg masih x insaf2 walaupun usia dh di hujung tanduk

teringat plak cerita 'sebelum akhirat' yg aku tengok kat tv3 ari sabtu malam

watak utama cerita tu banyak melakukan maksiat

jd pengedar dadah, ceti haram, bapak ayam, derhaka pada parents die, tukar2 perempuan macam pinggan pakai buang, bile awek die mengandung suh pergi gugurkan...

memang hidup penuh dgn dosa

last2 dapat AIDS

parents die memang xnak jaga

ade ustaz yg baik hati tolong jagakan die

duk menanggung azab hidup macam mayat hidup

last sekali, mati tanpa dpt mengucap

belum mati dh rasa azab, selepas mati apatah lagi azab yg menunggu

aku bersyukur yg amat mak ayah aku bg ilmu agama at aku

ilmu dunia pun diorang bagi

thanks a lot mom n dad

i love ya so much...

tapi

au xtau macam mane aku nk didik bakal anak2 aku nanti

*tu pun kalau aku akan ada anak...*

dengan kepincangan di sana sini

ishhh...

macam mana ntah

tengoklah nanti

huhuhuhu

bajet macam dh baal jadi ibu jer...

eh, bukan ibu,..umi

bakal bapak die,..abi

tp xtau lagi sape bakal bapaknye

tetiba aku rase nk kahwin skang jgak....

hahahahaha

lol...

x tahan ni...

giler dh aku nih...

mom n dad

tolong...

orang nk kahwin.............................

aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sumpah lau aku cakap macam tu skang ni kena marah

bljr x abes lagi,...keje pun x lagi

dh menggatal

abang aku yg dh ade makwe tu pun x kawin2 lagi

raya ni kot

dpt la kakak ipar baru

aku suke sangat main dgn aliff

anak sedara aku sorang tu

anak k.han aku

rindu betul die kat aku

aku pergi bercuti kat sana

x berhenti memanggil aku

time aku duk dalam bilik duk menghadap lappy, nak duk sebelah aku

time aku pergi mandi duk cari aku

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa

rindunye at die

baru sehari berpisah

tu dgn anak orang lain

lau anak sendiri macam mana eh?

hehehehehehe

ishhh...

dah2 la tu

k lah